Friday 1st October 2004

I'm keeping this short and sweet tonight, I've been upset, because well it's not daddy's fault I'm just sick of the pain of my tooth even though it's taken my mind off the anxieties of losing you like I have Alex and Ashley, I know I won't lose you this time!I'm just so cheesed off that this tooth has bad timing.Lisa's baby 'amy' has passed away at 36 weeks (Lisalulu), :( *tears upon tears* that upset me too, its so unfair, its sad, hard and painful to go through the miscarriages as we did but to lose your angel so far into the pregnancy like that, its just unfair! Sometimes i feel there is no god! or mother natures a complete bitch!Grandma and grandad are going away on holiday on Sunday and I don't know why it kinda upsets me when they go away because apart from obviously missing them I sometimes feel alone, on my own, even though your daddy is here and your big brother Declan is here.Well you keep them pregnancy hormones flowing whether its spots on my face I keep getting and swiping away or my tender breasts aching.Keep Growing our Little one we love you xxx