10th November 2004 Scan time

Well here is a scan picture, little wriggler - bungee beanie - showing beanies head and body, even a little nose and fingers.

Wednesday 10th November 2004

Well first post (of the day), the name I said for a girl, daddy doesn't agree on, I mentioned it a while back he says "yes" but then he wasn't listening so when I mentioned it yesterday he said "no" so back to the baby naming books/online lists.It was so nice to see, and reassuring to see you're OK in there today, I was scared and very anxious all the way up the hill and up 'till the time Mr Young (obs consultant) pointed out the heartbeat... Phewww, sigh of relief.Next Scan will be 1st December, I can't wait. Just want to sleep between now and then, apart from midwife appointment on 24th November, that will be good too!

Hello again Beanie!Well aren't you a little wriggler, now I know where those little tickles come from, all that moving about, poor Peter (obs consultant) couldn't get a picture for ages until you decided to have a rest.So are you going to play for man city like your big brother? With those powerful kicks I think I'm in for some powerful "ribbing" in a few months time hey, and hiccups? It was so exciting to see you moving about, I was so worried and scared and the pictures and seeing you on screen was so surreal, it's just so magic how they can do that these days.Well 1st December is our next scan and hopefully we shall meet up with Lucy and her little daughter and her bumpy beanie too, looking forward to that too. Love Mummy, Daddy, Declan, angels Alex and Ashley xxxxx

Monday 8th November 2004

Hope you're OK baby, I'm sorry for getting upset, I just want things to be perfect with the four of us but it never will be in some ways, your perfect, Declan's perfect, I am (almost) and your Daddy is, but for some principles need sorting out and it will never happen, I'm very upset, I'm scared and anxious, I don't want to lose you and I don't want to get upset!I'm not lazy but I want to stay at home and put my feet up until you are born, I'm not sure if this will help I just hope!!!Love Mummy, Daddy, Big brother Declan xxxx Alex and Ashley I hope you are happy, keep watching over your little brother/sister and keep him/her safe from the outside world until 40 weeks (full term). Love Mummy xxx

Sunday 7th November 2004

Well hello there beanie, oh what a day! First we couldn't get the stuff we wanted to get and then well it's back to work tomorrow, yawn! I'll miss my lie ins and I won't get much of one next Saturday, not a quiet one anyway.Roll on Christmas break! Yet first, roll on Wednesday. I can't wait to see you on screen, midwifes have to take bloods too, oh whoopee doo!Your last scan photos are laying by my bed, so I can see you when I get up, when I go to bed, and I feel you too. You haven't been that obvious in your movements yet it's early days and some days you show more than others, and one day you Will show me how to kick a football (yet it will be my ribs) hehe. :)OK Daddy is in the bath and I'm gonna go play something, don't know what, just something. Nightey nightey baby bungee baby xxxxx
A little note to our angels Alex and Ashley, I hope you like the roses we leave for you and have been playing with the balloon that we left for you, so many flowers and so many little angels surrounding you, to play with you. I just wish you were here with us here at home now xxx

Saturday 6th November 2004

Good Morning Beanie! I've been trying to find free samples to put in your little treasure box for when you pop into this world to meet all those that love you. Ordered a couple of items of clothing, which reminds me, I'll have to ring them and clarify payment in a minute, also we have got a nice soft, slidy, wooden floor which I'm sure you will love when you arrive. Gosh I am excited at even thinking of your arrival in 6 months "woohooo" Sadly, Auntie Gill hasn't got much time left, it is not fair, she will be sad she won't ever get to met you, if you are a girl you could/will be her name sake, if you are a boy, well we're still searching for names, yet I still believe you could be a 'Jack'. Well I think you will be here 'til last minute, at home 'til you pop out unless they decide to induce me, I'm not going for a home birth it's just boring in hospitals and although they have all the pain relief I have stuck an image in my head that daddy can watch TV if we are at home (what's he like) whilst I pace around the room as you try and push yourself out, have a bath etc :) Well I think I'll go do something now, don't know what but something, Daddy and Declan are playing on PS2 (surprise surprise) (Later the same day) We have been out today and bought some accessories for the kitchen (curtain pole) and a rug yesterday for under the table, we need curtains and a blind for the kitchen now, maybe. Mummy, here, made some sweet flapjacks 'mmm' and have been munching between headaches, just tea time now which of course daddy is making.

Thursday 4th November 2004

Well 'ello Beanie! Today I've been up, been sick, been out having lunch, back home in car when I felt crap and then home to be sick again and feel generally rotten....gather you didn't like part of that meal as I had to chuck it up again...they do say if baby doesn't like something your body gets rid upwards rather than down...So I gather something was a no no... egg or pineapple? Ice-cream? cream? chips? I will get to the bottom of this or is it the top? Well you moved about a bit after I finished lunch so I gather you enjoyed either most of the lunch or the lime and lemonade which I think was a bit crappy lemonade as it tasted horrid (I've had nicer). Well that's it for now, not sure what to do with myself but I might go and tidy Declans bedroom up a bit. Went to see Alex and Ashley today and took them two roses and a Happy Birthday 'Winnie the pooh' balloon for Alex birthday, to think Ashley would be about 5 months now and Alex would be a year old, our darling Angels, we miss you lots and beanie, we love you lots xxx (Later the same day) hello bouncy one again... who likes fizzy stuff then? bit of lemonade and your bouncing off the walls, that placenta is not a bungee cord you know, it's a cushion for you to lie down on and go to sleep late at night, your oxygen tank that I am, the placenta is your life line. ***boing*** Just messing, you bounce about as much as you wish, whilst you have the room to do it, and then when you can walk one day we will take you to Funsters to have a good bounce with your brother. Ooh I can't wait for Christmas!

Wednesday 3rd November 2004

'Ello Beanie, I wonder how big you are now, I reckon you are about 6Cm's, at a guess, with daddy feeding me so good! You have moved a bit last night when I went to bed I felt you, and this morning, very very lightly. Also this morning, Auntie Jo sent us a lovely card.

"Dear Phil & Ange,
CONGRATULATIONS Well done you guys! We are so happy to
hear your news about your baby, you must be over the moon. Take good care of
yourself Ange & get Phil to feed you lots of cake, etc, etc! Love, Jo, Rich,
Will & Isla
xx"

(Later the same day) Hello beanie again, mummy not feeling good, very upset about lots of things right now, and I've got to stay calm and not get my blood pressure up because of you whom we all love. Auntie Gill doesn't want to see anybody, she wants to go now, to be with our Angels Alex and Ashley, I just want to curl up and sleep 'til Christmas, 'til Santa Claus comes down the chimney and brings us lots of baby glue, and presents for Declan. Just think this time next year we will be looking forward to your 1st Christmas, mummy and daddy are trying to stay positive, it's hard, and upsetting. Night night xxx

Tuesday 2nd November 2004

Well hello beanie! I've been very tired today and most the time felt like crying, I did have a cry this morning! I perked up after my bath when our lovely Declan came home from school. You have moved around today as I've felt butterflies yet I don't think I've heard/felt hiccups today. I'm feeling anxious about next Wednesday, I don't know why I know things will be fine! Daddy has made a lovely lasagna for tea (we haven't been the best of friends 'cus I said a couple of home truths this morning - I can blame it on my hormones :) ) Let's hope we have a better week with daddy hey, and get wriggling beanie, I wanna feel ya dance xxx

Monday 1st November 2004

Hello there beanie *smiles* again, I've had some little fancy footwork from you, it feels like flutterbys moving around my bump, it's really cool! Daddy has been painting the kitchen cupboards today, it stinks, he has finished the cupboards, the walls come next. I don't want this week to end because I'm enjoying being at home, having my feet up, waiting for your next spurt of bubbly flutterbys and yet I also can't wait for next Wednesday when we shall see you moving about on the magic screen again. It's better than going to the cinema, seeing you dancing around! We will be popping around on Thursday morning to see Alex and Ashley on the way to lunch with Nana and pops, which I can't wait for either as I should try and come more often, to be honest when we have certain visitors I don't want to be home, I want to be sitting on the benches in the memorial garden.
xxx Daddy, big brother and I love you so much xxx