Monday 8th November 2004

Hope you're OK baby, I'm sorry for getting upset, I just want things to be perfect with the four of us but it never will be in some ways, your perfect, Declan's perfect, I am (almost) and your Daddy is, but for some principles need sorting out and it will never happen, I'm very upset, I'm scared and anxious, I don't want to lose you and I don't want to get upset!I'm not lazy but I want to stay at home and put my feet up until you are born, I'm not sure if this will help I just hope!!!Love Mummy, Daddy, Big brother Declan xxxx Alex and Ashley I hope you are happy, keep watching over your little brother/sister and keep him/her safe from the outside world until 40 weeks (full term). Love Mummy xxx